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people ruling people...and about kristin [Oct. 23rd, 2004|09:19 pm]
xgreyrainbowx
[mood |aggravatedaggravated]
[music |pretty girls make graves-the smiths]

ok, i'm back, and i forgot what i was going to bitch about...

oh yah, Kristin...yah, she's going to drive me crazy...she gets pissed off at me when i have to relay messages for people, she got all bent out of shape about the video during sports, after Taylor even said he didn't need it...i need to figure out why the tv won't work..but oh my God. If she's working tomorrow, i'm gonna tell Andrew I'm pregnant and my doctor says i can't work with her anymore :)

I don't feel like bitching about Kristin right now...

I talked to Daniel today...he was at Mike and Jen's...he had to like, pretend he wasn't talking to me and get off the phone real quick...

I'll tell you what, if your friends are threatening not being your friends anymore because you talk to gay people, maybe you should re-evaluate who your friends are and why.

But if he wants other people to rule his life, i sure as hell can't/won't stop him.
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I'm telling you.... [Oct. 23rd, 2004|09:02 pm]
xgreyrainbowx
[mood |annoyedannoyed]
[music |pretty girls make graves-the smiths]

I swear...if anything or anyone pisses any of the people i love off in the next 2 weeks...they will die.

It makes me sad...Ashley's upset, Sandra's been having some troubles too...some strange reason Marisa called the other day, i can only assume she's sad about something...if that bitch who messed with my girl calls back...how much do plane tickets cost? one way cause i'm going to jail...

You know i'm not serious about killing people...but someone's getting a talkin to...cause this hurts me...

I'm very happy right now...I don't want to be pissed, but damn...

smoke break!
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Wait another week [Oct. 22nd, 2004|08:24 pm]
xgreyrainbowx
[mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[music |Ray Charles-night time is the right time]

I go home alone
when i don't have to usually
i feel lathargic
I lost all my energy
I need my lover
I need my center
I need the sun the moon the stars i need
the flame the earth the air the water

On green sheets of satin fall my tears
I waste my time in hobbies, dreaming and careers
i dream only of dancing cheek to cheek
I have to hold on wait another week


I feel so alone
I feel so damn cold
I only want to sleep
my bones feel so old
I need my lover
I need my center
I need the sun the moon the stars i need
the flame the earth the air the water

I need the elemental love
I need the universe in two bright eyes
I need the way she smiles at me
I need the arms that set me free
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Has the whole world lost their minds? [Oct. 22nd, 2004|08:19 pm]
xgreyrainbowx
[mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[music |Ray Charles-night time is the right time]

I see a man with a baby
raise a voice raise a hand
I see a woman in in rags
penniless from from a faithless man

has the whole world lost their minds?

I see a man so alone
with his stocks with his bonds
i see a boy on the corner
wonder what drug the boy is on

has the whole world lost their minds?

It's all about love
It's all about giving up yourself
It's all about brotherhood
It's all about love

It's the only thing
that is worth everything
I think the world has lost their minds

I see a girl cling to rag dolls
wants a mom wants a dad
I see all the girls go rushing
for the next big thing for the next big fad

has the whole world lost their minds?
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i have nothing but i have everything [Oct. 22nd, 2004|08:12 pm]
xgreyrainbowx
[mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[music |Ray Charles-night time is the right time]

All my friends are gone
Left me all alone
I have nothing left
But everything

All my wealth has gone low
And my life is frantic
I have nothing left
But everything

We can move to anywhere
If we want to
We can live the life we want
me and my baby girl

Everyone thinks i have nothing
but i have everything
cause i have you

by the worlds opinion
I have little left to live for
I have nothing left
but everything

They can search all they want
But i won't crack a frown
They can assume all they want
that i'm down
but life has never looked better
and i don't just need to cry
They can't see inside my heart
If they could they'd see that I feel so high
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Can i breathe yet? [Oct. 22nd, 2004|05:29 pm]
xgreyrainbowx
hmm...I got my checking account fixed...i'm getting my laundry done as we speak...I got that thing put in the mailbox and i'm at work on time...i actually got here early...KFX is tonight, which, shouldn't be to stressful, but you know...

I don't like this new guy we have on cameras...i don't know him so i'll give him a chance, but i don't like his attitude...and he smelled like whiskey last night and i think he had been drinking...

...hmm...

that and he had offended me on his first day...i don't know...not a good first impression, but i won't let my own opinion slow me down.

All week I've felt on the verge of having an anxiety attack, and/or passing out...before last night i had only slept 10 in the past week and a half or so...and i've been uber stressed out...I don't quite know what this song is about, but it's how i feel...the music anyway

MARS VOLTA
"Televators"

Just as he hit
The ground
They lowered a tow that
Stuck in his neck to the gills
Fragments of sobriquets
riddle me this
three half eaten corneas
who hit the aureole
Stalk the ground
Stalk the ground
You should have seen
The curse that flew right by you
Page of concrete
Stained walks crutch in hobbled sway
Auto-da-fé
A capillary hint of red
Only this manupod
Crescent in shape has escaped
The house half the way
Fell empty with teeth
That split both his lips
Mark these words
One day this chalk outline will circle this city
Was he robbed of the asphalt that cushioned his face
A room colored charlatan
Hid in a safe
Stalk the ground
Stalk the ground
You should have seen
The curse that flew right by you
Page of concrete
Stain walks crutch in hobbled sway
Auto-da-fé
A capillary hint of red
Only this manupod
Crescent in shape has escaped
Pull the pins
Save your grace
Mark these words
On his grave
You should have seen
The curse that flew right by you
Page of concrete
Stain walks crutch in hobbled sway
Auto-da-fé
A capillary hint of red
Everyone knows the last toes are
Always the coldest to go


Like i said, not quite sure yet what it means, but when i figure it out...

it's just how i feel...leave me alone...

I want my Sarah here, i have to wait another week.

i wrote her a poem and a letter...I need to finish it all...

Chris
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(no subject) [Oct. 17th, 2004|10:07 pm]
xgreyrainbowx
[mood |predatory]
[music |Rilo Kiley-portions for foxes]

I knew something was wrong...

I didn't want to say anything...

Amanda needs to stay the FUCK away from my girl.

She's this girl from the club, not my boss who is also an Amanda, (btw, I LOVE MY BOSS), nononononononono.....this chick is an evil bitch.

She kissed my girl, next day she said she "needed to hear the sound of her voice", she called her sexy and she even wrote a song about her(granted it was called "if circumstances were different", but i don't give a shit, I don't ever want her pulling that shit again)....is she trying to get killed?

I have been refraining from writing anything real in LJ for this reason. if you get me started, i will tell you EXACTLY how i feel about her.

I hate her. I haven't hated anyone since Daniel, but i would seriously lose my temper if i had to be around her again.

If she ever sets foot in Abilene again, i will talk to her, and noone can stop me..."don't want to disrespect Chris" MY FUCKING ASS!

I'll be fine...eventually.
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(no subject) [Oct. 16th, 2004|09:07 pm]
xgreyrainbowx

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all the young girls.... [Oct. 15th, 2004|09:26 pm]
xgreyrainbowx
ELTON JOHN LYRICS

"All The Girls Love Alice"
I don't know why i relate so strongly to this song....



Raised to be a lady by the golden rule
Alice was the spawn of a public school
With a double barrel name in the back of her brain
And a simple case of Mummy-doesn't-love-me blues

Reality it seems was just a dream
She couldn't get it on with the boys on the scene
But what do you expect from a chick who's just sixteen
And hey, hey, hey, you know what I mean

All the young girls love Alice
Tender young Alice they say
Come over and see me
Come over and please me
Alice it's my turn today

All the young girls love Alice
Tender young Alice they say
If I give you my number
Will you promise to call me
Wait till my husband's away

Poor little darling with a chip out of her heart
It's like acting in a movie when you got the wrong part
Getting your kicks in another girl's bed
And it was only last Tuesday they found you in the subway dead

And who could you call your friends down in Soho
One or two middle-aged dykes in a Go-Go
And what do you expect from a sixteen year old yo-yo
And hey, hey, hey, oh don't you know
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Your bad news [Oct. 15th, 2004|08:04 pm]
xgreyrainbowx
[mood |lazylazy]
[music |rilo kiley-portions for foxes]

Well...Sarah leaves tonight...kinda sad, I don't really want her to leave, but she has to y'know?

Daniel called yesterday...odd...i rolled over in bed and said something like "I don't want to talk to him..."

But i did anyway, and....i guess we're going to try to be friends again...

Who knows where this will end up...

my life is so beautiful right now...I'm loving this so much...

i heard a song the other day, I swear to God it's the past year of my life...

Portions for foxes - Rilo Kiley

There's blood in my mouth 'cause I've been biting my tongue all week
I keep on talkin' trash but I never say anything
And the talkin' leads to touchin'
and the touchin' leads to sex
and then there is no mystery left

And it's bad news
Baby I'm bad news
I'm just bad news, bad news, bad news

I know I'm alone if I'm with or without you
but just bein' around you offers me another form of relief
When the loneliness leads to bad dreams
and the bad dreams lead me to callin' you
and I call you and say "C'MERE!"

And it's bad news
Baby I'm bad news
I'm just bad news, bad news, bad news

And it's bad news
Baby it's bad news
It's just bad news, bad news, bad news

'Cause you're just damage control
for a walking corpse like me - like you

'Cause we'll all be
Portions for foxes
Yeah we'll all be
Portions for foxes

There's a pretty young thing in front of you
and she's real pretty and she's real into you
and then she's sleepin' inside of you
and the talkin' leads to touchin'
and the touchin' leads to sex
and then there is no mystery left

And it's bad news
I don't blame you
I do the same thing
I get lonely too

And you're bad news
My friends tell me to leave you
That you're bad news, bad news, bad news

You're bad news
Baby you're bad news
and you're bad news
Baby you're bad news
and you're bad news
I don't care I like you
and you're bad news
I don't care I like you
I like you



If there was a trailer to the movie of my life, that song would be in it.
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